Tuesday, 29 December 2015

A Quick Update

I know I haven't posted in a while, and I just wanted to check in and give you a quick update.

Apart from the obvious last minute rushed Christmas preparation, I've had quite a lot going on. Last month, I went to the Doctor after years of putting it off, suspecting Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. My GP referred me for blood tests and an ultrasound. After about two weeks, I went for my ultrasound at the Liverpool Women's Hospital. I'd had invasive ultrasounds before when I had my Mirena Coil fitted, but this was different. I was super nervous. After a lot of poking, prodding, and a really revealing hospital gown, the sonographer found a 10cm x 10cm cyst. It was huge! She said because of the size, it's likely to be pressing on nerves, and is the true cause of my back pain. 

Of course at first, my mind went straight to the dreaded C-word. I left the hospital in tears, and phoned all my family members, choking back tears. My Dad phoned after a few hours, offering a few words of comfort. Not too long ago, my Granddad died after a seven-month battle with lung cancer that spread too quickly to control. He said "I know exactly what you're thinking - that not twelve months ago, we had this "You aren't going to pop your clogs over this" conversation with Pop, but this is completely different." Blinded by fear, I couldn't really take this on board at the time, but I appreciate it all the more now.

My GP called later in the week, confirming they'd had the ultrasound results back, and that they believed it to be a completely benign cyst. Although it was large, they weren't too concerned. They've referred me for an MRI, as they can't tell whether it's an ovarian cyst or of some other origin, and to the Women's Hospital again. I'm not entirely sure what that referral is for, but it's very likely to be an assessment for surgery, I guess.

Although it isn't what I wanted, it is the best of a bad situation. I may lose my left ovary, but I will take that over cancer every day of the week. So a lot of the past few weeks has just been taking care of myself and considering my future, really. I feel like I'm being such a drama queen, while many people go through much worse, so I have to continually remind myself that this doesn't negate my sadness. If I have any advice to offer anyone it's: Get yourself checked out. Do not just ignore it. You know your body better than anyone else, and if you have a feeling that something isn't right, it probably isn't. Please don't assume that I'm attention seeking with this blog post. The only reason I want to tell of my experience so far is so people know that they are not alone. People don't tend to talk about their vaginal and ovarian health, but it is so important that everyone can recognise when they need to seek medical attention.

I have big plans for 2016. Blogging, networking, building a career and moving on with my life. I don't want to be one of those people that are all "New year, new me", but the shit heap that was 2015 really needs to be over now.
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