Tuesday, 12 February 2019

I'm Moving to China!

So this is a bit of a weird one, isn't it? 

Back in November, my partner of nearly nine years and I split up. I was heartbroken, distraught, and completely lost. My life had been completely turned upside down, and for weeks it felt like I had no purpose. I know that you should never feel incomplete if you're not in a relationship, but remember this had been the last nine years of my life, and now I was in uncharted territory. It's an old cliché, but I was in a very dark place for a couple of weeks, but I was lucky to be surrounded by people that loved me. 

It took a little longer than it probably should have, but after about two weeks, I started to let people help me. I moved in with one of my best friends and her fiancé after she wouldn't take no for an answer, and I will be forever grateful for that. Looking back now, I don't know how I would've coped without her. My close friends and family made time for me to just rant and cry, and friends I hadn't seen for years came out to support me. The breakup was shitty in that my whole life had suddenly been completely fucked, but really showed me how loved I was by everyone in my life. As sad as I am that things ended, I'm not angry anymore, and I genuinely want nothing but happiness for both of us.

In December, it occurred to me that I didn't have to just find a place to live in Liverpool if I didn't want to. Suddenly, everything was an option. It was only being in touch with Cassie that I thought "Hey, why don't I give China a go?". Asia had previously been a part of the World that I'd never really considered visiting, but it was a viable option. It's not like I had rent in the UK to pay. Yeah, I have debts that need paying, but they can be maintained while I'm away. What did I have to lose? 

I applied for my visa, bought my flights, quit my job, and here we are, nearly a week before I touch down in Beijing. It's such a weird feeling knowing that I'll be so far away from my family and friends for a while, but I know that I'm about to have potentially the biggest adventure of my life. It makes me want to throw up just typing this, but it really is kind of true that when one door slams shut in your face, another one opens. My door just happened to lead to China.

It's going to be a shock, that I'm sure of. I don't know any Mandarin, but I'm going to do my best to learn. I'll be honest, my plan is mostly to just wing it in that respect. I've stressed about every other detail to the point of several meltdowns, and Google Translate will probably be a crutch for at least several months.

Will I come back to the UK? Yes, definitely. When will that be? Who knows.

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